Ask me anything   Carpe Diem. Sieze The Day. That's the motto I live by. How I choose the sieze the day? I never have that figured out, but I let life take it's flow & just go with it. I usually don't agree with how things go, and I will complain; I'll admit that, but every night the last thing I think is 'how grateful am I?' I live in secret, everyone who knows me just assumes I'm this Christian girl who lives a happy life & is close with her family & deals with things in a good manner. But the real me? I wish I knew. I live a secret basically. I love too much and I trust too many. I see the good in everyone & I get stabbed in the back for it. I love smiling, but on the inside I'm constantly filled with depression, regret, heartbreak, it keeps going... Honestly I would not be here right now if it wasn't for my savior Jesus Christ. He brought be back to life at an extremely rough patch in my life and He has worked a handful of miracles in my lifetime that I thank Him for every day, and I know that for all the times I cry and I am struggling, that He's there to heal the pain. So that's why I'm still here, typing this today. Is because I know that whatever pain is going on each day, that He'll heal it. I'm the strangest of all my friends, and I'm the most different. I think differently than everyone, but no one ever guesses it. I make friends easily, but of all the friends I have, I don't trust any of them because of all the times I've been stabbed. I live in this fantasy world of what I wish it was like, but then again I love the life I have, because of my family I do trust and my God that trusts & believes in me. I express all my hurt and feelings through dancing, because that's the only thing that heals it... Then comes tumblr. So enjoy what you see & always shine brighter. If I can, you can too.

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